HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL, MAGDA EKLUND?

Is there an expiration date for self-discovery?

Psychiatrist Magda Eklund, the mordant protagonist of Montague’s debut novel, is on the cusp of her 70th birthday and is dealing—sort of—with the death of her close friend Sara. Though their relationship had been somewhat fraught before Sara’s death, Magda is grieving the loss of their long-term connection, perhaps even more than Sara’s widower, Fred, who has relinquished his wife’s possessions, correspondence, and ashes for Magda to winnow through. While exploring Sara’s notes, Magda finds the outline for a birthday road trip Sara planned for them, with an itinerary including locations of sentimental importance to both friends. Magda embarks on the trip herself, accompanied by Sara’s ashes, a lifetime of memories, and a sense of confusion about what Sara had intended the trip to accomplish. As Magda travels from state to state and from inns to motel rooms to convenience stores, she experiences a longing for Sara while encountering other people who manage to live with considerably less angst. (More importantly, she delays visiting a stop related to a critical time in her own past.) Grappling with the reality of Sara’s death is just one part of the problem Magda needs to solve; another is how to be happy, if possible, in a world where she has never acknowledged, openly, what (or who) she wants in life. Montague portrays Magda’s slow journey to self-acceptance and actualization with sensitivity and sketches out the social, familial, and professional forces that have been roadblocks along the way. Humor and bemusement at human foibles characterize the narrative but never detract from the seriousness of Magda’s delayed search for happiness and comfort in her sexual identity.

The hard lessons and gifts acquired through loss are illustrated here in the most sensitive way.