A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE
by Asha Thanki
A mysterious tapestry brings the past to life for generations of women in one Hindu family.
The tapestry’s current guardian is Ayukta, a sculptor in Brooklyn. Although her ancestral memories go back further, she begins her story about 80 years ago with her grandmother Amla’s recollections of a happy childhood in Karachi, where Hindus and Muslims lived harmoniously together. But in 1947, when Amla was 10, Partition arrived. Amla’s mother died by political violence; Amla and her father escaped to Hindu Gujarat. Amla had the tapestry but, as a motherless girl, had to teach herself how to use it. She learned to experience her maternal ancestors’ lives. But her other new power—drawing events before they happened—was harder to understand, and one drawing caused her terrible grief. Years later, she gave the tapestry to her cautious, obedient older daughter, assuming Vibha would avoid her mistake. But after Vibha ensured the happy future of her book-smart, bold younger sister Arni in a drawing, Vibha made a fatal error. Mourning Vibha’s death, Amla feared Arni was too impulsive to trust with the tapestry, but Arni proved herself worthy, if more independent. She moved to America and became Ayukta’s mother. The intricacies of motherhood and daughterhood are thoroughly examined here. Ayukta has revealed the tapestry’s existence to her wife, Nadya, to explain her ambivalence about motherhood, and their conversations concerning the tapestry’s potential impact on any child they might raise together frequently interrupt Ayukta’s storytelling. Love between queer women takes shape as another theme through Ayukta and Nadya’s relationship, and also as Ayukta begins to realize the abiding love Amla shared with her rediscovered childhood friend Fiza—a “love [that] collapses time,” Ayukta says a bit oversentimentally. There is nothing sentimental, though, in Thanki’s views on the unintended consequences of Partition and the rise of nationalism.
Glorious prose creates a grand, sometimes over-the-top sweep of facts, fantasy, and intriguing characters.