DON'T LOOK LEFT

A chilling day-by-day account of living in and fleeing from Gaza in the last three months of 2023.

“Pain cannot be talked about,” writes Abu Saif, author of A Suspended Life. “It cannot be expressed or written about. It is just felt and lived.” The author was born in 1973 in a refugee camp in Gaza, under the constant watch and threat of Israeli warships and surveillance, where displacement and the refugee status was repetitive and cyclical (and still is)—a place so familiar with violence that the attacks of October 7, 2023, were not even immediately recognizable as the beginning of a war. Abu Saif’s piercing diaries are proof of significant pain, as he provides records of overnight attacks, friends and family members killed, decisions about where to find safety, and debates over whether to stay in Gaza or flee south, as directed by the Israeli leaflets dropped from the sky. While offering some historical background for the terror that has plagued the region for decades, this is primarily an account of the suffering of a man and his people, painted in the bare and bracing brush strokes of someone pushed to the edges of his humanity, weakened by hunger and stress, forced to dig through rubble to find his own relatives. Abu Saif poses profound questions about the meaning of victory, the desire for survival, and the temporary nature of truce, alongside logistical (though no less pressing) ones like where to find bread or how to keep the elements of an impending winter at bay. In publishing his diaries, the author not only exposes the acts of the Israeli Defense Force to a world determined to look away, but also demands compassion and offers a critique of how the world makes news of war and genocide.

Desperate, devastating, and difficult to read, making it all the more necessary.