ALL SHE LOST

A Lebanese journalist interviews the nation’s women about the impact of a deadly, unexplained explosion in Beirut.

On Aug. 4, 2020, a warehouse storing ammonium nitrate caught fire and exploded in Beirut’s port, killing at least 220 people and injuring 6,000, including many foreign nationals. The disaster not only occurred in the middle of the pandemic, but also during an unprecedented economic crisis that spurred nationwide protests against Lebanon’s wealthy ruling class. Mawad, a Paris-based journalist, mother, and relative of an assassinated Lebanese president, began reporting stories that often focused on the “psychological toll of the blast.” Most of the author’s interviewees were women. “I began putting together survivors’ stories, particularly from women, although that was never a deliberate choice at the outset,” she writes. “Many of these women lost everything that day: the most precious people in their lives, their physical and mental health, their homes and livelihoods, their ability to be happy and to feel in any way secure.” Mawad intersperses a collection of these interviews with historical context and her emotional reactions to hearing the women’s words. The author includes conversations with a variety of people, including nurses, doctors, Syrian refugees, and at least one former celebrity. Toward the end, Mawad describes her decision to move with her daughter to Paris, stating that she was escaping “an abusive relationship with my country,” which she classifies as a “failed state.” At its best, the book is deeply researched and profoundly moving. At times, the author’s descriptions of her personal reactions divert attention from the women’s powerful stories. Likewise, her rage about her country’s failures feels more suited to memoir than reporting. The result is a book that, despite many moments of literary merit, suffers from a lack of cohesion.

A well-curated but disjointed collection of post-disaster Lebanese female voices.