IDLEWILD

Two teenagers wrestle with friendship and attraction at a New York City private school in this hilarious and sexy debut.

In the early 2000s, Nell and Fay are best friends at Idlewild, a private Quaker school in lower Manhattan. Nell “is good at numbers and homework,” while Fay “is good at having big tits and being the boss.” Together they form the “F&N unit,” and for most of senior year, they move through the school with a sense of urgent inseparability. Under the surface, though, are unspoken tensions—like the fact that shy, sincere Nell has a massive crush on brash, confident Fay. Whereas Nell is out, Fay’s sexuality remains mysterious and elusive. In class, Fay is known for passionately arguing that literature from The Great Gatsby to Othello is full of “HoYay,” an internet term meaning “Homoeroticism: Yay!” Fay’s fantasies about gayness, what qualities attract and excite her, are explored with subtlety, precision, and originality, even as they are likely to feel relatable to many readers. While in the process of naming her desires, Fay’s vacillation between frustration and exhilaration is movingly conjured on the page. Everything changes when Fay and Nell befriend two sophomore boys: the enigmatic, erratic Theo and his puppy-doggish friend and roommate, Christopher. At first, Fay is fascinated by the boys’ friendship, living arrangement, and possible sexual chemistry—but soon, Fay’s interest shifts specifically to Theo, who seems to understand parts of Fay that no one else has. Narrated in turns by the adult Nell and Fay, looking back at their Idlewild years, and the royal “we” of the F&N unit in 2002, the novel bursts with voice, skillfully conjuring both the easy banter of best friends on AIM and the ruminating uncertainty of adolescence.

Equal parts funny and insightful, this is a propulsive exploration of gender identity, sexuality, and self-discovery.