IF TOMORROW DOESN'T COME

Just as college freshman Avery Byrne is going to end her life, sirens blare, warning of an unimaginable crisis: An 8-mile-wide asteroid is set to hit Earth in nine days.

Avery, a former straight-A student, is a promising soccer recruit at an elite college in New Hampshire, and yet she finds herself friendless, on academic probation, struggling to find authentic queer love, and desperately missing her childhood bestie, Cass Joshi-Aguilar, who is living in New York City. Avery’s suicide plan tragically mirrors her Aunt Devin’s own back in her family’s homeland of Ireland—a heartbreaking family trauma that has provided a somber backdrop to Avery’s life. Through asynchronous chapters that switch between the present-day apocalyptic survival adventure and Avery’s childhood and teenage years, this courageous tale illuminates a young queer woman’s quest out of self-loathing toward self-acceptance. It boldly asks: When the end is near, how do we live, and whom do we hold most dear? Alongside the bleakness of the asteroid’s impending impact and the melancholy of Avery’s deep depression, St. Jude deftly navigates difficult topics such as death, generational trauma, mental health, and queerness in a conservative Catholic family. Supporting characters who are diverse in ethnicity and sexuality add real depth: Aisha, Avery’s Nigerian roommate and fellow soccer player, is asexual, and gregarious free spirit Cass is an Indian and Mexican lesbian.

A textured book offering readers hope in the face of impossibility.