DON’T ASK IF I’M OKAY

A small-town Idaho teenager in mourning must find the courage to reveal his pain and ask for help.

One year after surviving the car accident that killed Hunter, his cousin and best friend, recent high school graduate Gage is hiding his nightmares and panic attacks. His belief that everyone else is dealing better with grief, combined with pressure from his dad to be a rock for his family, convinces Gage that he must pretend to be OK. Aunt Gina, Hunter’s mother, has the opportunity to showcase an art piece about grief at an exhibition in Seattle, which Gage, unable to get in a car since the accident, refuses to attend. With his aunt, mom, and stepdad out of town, Gage agrees to host a memorial for Hunter for their friends. To Gage, the memorial, a potential job working in his favorite celebrity chef’s restaurant, and a budding romance with a charming new girl seem like the perfect opportunities to show how well he is handling things, but when it all gets to be too much, Gage is forced to reevaluate how to live with grief while also caring for others. This poignant, character-driven novel meditates on themes of grief, loss, trauma, masculinity, vulnerability, and healing in ways that are accessible for teen readers. Gage is initially resistant to suggestions that he seek therapy; his father and stepfather offer contrasting examples of openness to mental health support. Main characters read White.

A tender and honest coming-of-age tale.