A FIFTY-YEAR SILENCE

Unearthing her grandparents’ mysterious 50-year estrangement forms the foundation for translator and editor Mouillot’s memoir.

From the time she was a young girl, the author understood that she came from a turbulent family of Holocaust survivors and that her estranged grandparents’ relationship was odd. The family’s emotional terrain consisted of “fights and bitterness, illness and injury, trauma, bad memories, and crazy grudges.” Her mother knew little about their relationship, except for the fact that they hadn’t spoken in almost 40 years. As an adolescent, Mouillot had been close to her grandmother, but it was not until she was 14 that she visited her difficult grandfather alone in Switzerland for the first time. After this visit, the author initially comprehended the volatility surrounding her grandparents’ relationship. The combination of her grandfather’s strong negative feelings for his ex-wife and her grandmother’s vague responses to Mouillot’s inquiries about their relationship prompted more questions. Through convoluted conversations with her mother and grandparents, the author began piecing together the puzzle of their traumatic daily lives. Her grandmother was a physician during the war, and her grandfather served as an interpreter at the Nuremberg trials. After they met, they married, had a baby and moved to a house in the countryside in southern France. Putting together the family story involved many discussions, delving into old family letters and archival research; the process took Mouillot more than 10 years. Before completing the family story, her grandfather lost his memory to dementia, but her grandmother was able to read an early version of the book. “While I was trying to remember,” writes the author, “Grandma was urging me to forget, to put it down on paper and get on with the labor or living.”

A moving family history researched with dedication and completed with a granddaughter’s love.