THE APPLICANT

A young Turkish writer on a student visa in Berlin records her day-to-day experiences as time runs out on both her visa status and her dreams of remaking her life on her own terms.

Leyla, born in Istanbul and raised by an embittered mother and abusive, alcoholic father, is in love with Berlin. When she first visited at 21, Berlin seemed like a place where she “wouldn’t have to give up on her dreams to stay alive,” a city of vagabonds where she could write the kinds of books that get Turkish novelists thrown in prison, inoculated from childhood voices telling her what she could not do. Five years later, Leyla's master’s thesis has failed, forcing her to sue the university for readmittance or be deported back to Turkey. While she waits in bureaucratic limbo for her case to be resolved, Leyla is not allowed to either enroll in another program or take a full-time job, but must make ends meet working part time as a cleaner at an Alice in Wonderland– themed hostel. As she negotiates her destabilizing new reality—not the bold writer she feels she should have become, not the model minority able to slot her identity into the Germanic system, not the dutiful daughter her sister resents her being to their mother in Istanbul but an invisible cog at the “bottom of the immigrant hierarchy”—Leyla throws herself further into the Berlin club scene, seeking solace, or at least oblivion, in the hypnosis of all-night dancing, drugs, and casual sexual encounters. Written in journal-style entries, Koca’s debut novel keeps its pace taut without ever seeming strained or frenetic. Leyla is a witty, acutely observant, and deeply sympathetic character who manages to tell the details of her life—both the transcendent epiphanies and the debauched aftermaths—with an honesty that disavows patronizing pity. This is a book about some of the largest issues of our time—ethnic identity, national belonging, the psychological traumas of patriarchy and White supremacy, sexual ownership, feminist reckoning—but it is also, and perhaps primarily, a book about the intimacy between a character and a reader as one agrees to talk and the other agrees to listen.

A powerful debut that heralds a voice intent on being heard.