THE ELIXIR EFFECT

In Matthews’ novel, a young Australian man discovers his late cousin’s secret life.

Dan Molina had always been a generous father figure to his 31-year-old cousin, Jamie Barrio, who manages Dan’s collectibles shop. In the wake of Dan’s death, Jamie struggles to adjust to the new reality of his life in Sydney, Australia, without him. Days after the funeral, a lawyer contacts Jamie with Dan’s final gift: a mysterious thumb drive containing hours of audio files. Jamie soon finds that each recording is a spoken letter by Dan, addressed to a mysterious “Ethan” and ending with the salutation “With love, Dad.” Jamie is baffled; is Ethan the child of a secret love affair? Why would Dan want Jamie to find out about it like this? Intrigued, Jamie plunges into the files, which tell the story of his late cousin’s trip to Perth, when abdominal pain landed him in the hospital. “I’ve never been so afraid as I am now,” Dan says, as he explains to the mysterious Ethan that doctors couldn’t determine what was wrong with him. He also tells Ethan about his childhood as a boy who was constantly teased for his weight; his struggles to connect with his own emotionally distant father; how he met Beatrice, his future wife and the love of his life; and how he became a respected consultant. Buried in the family mythology, however, is something deeper and more melancholy: “Was the road I chose the one less travelled by?” Dan asks Ethan, before he speaks of learning about bisexuality and queerness. Jamie soon realizes that these tapes reveal not only the up and downs of Dan’s life, but also deep secrets about his sexuality.

In an introduction, Matthews notes that his novel is based on a true story, and one that he found “instantly intriguing” and “painfully beautiful.” One could describe his book in a similar manner, as it grabs one’s attention from the beginning with several unfolding mysteries. Readers will find themselves asking some of the same questions as Jamie: Who is Ethan, and why did Dan share these communications with Jamie? Matthew smartly layers the narrative with multiple perspectives; alongside Jamie’s and Dan’s points of view is that of Dan’s nurse during his hospital stay, who contributes her own recollections. However, it’s Dan’s mournful, pensive voice that makes the strongest impression. His reflections on family life, especially as the child of immigrants from Uruguay, are filled with engaging observations and heartbreaking moments, whether he’s speaking of how his father continually disappointed him or his own hesitation to give in same-sex attractions. Matthews takes his time getting to the queer aspects of the story, and as a result, some of the earlier passages focused on Dan’s professional life, or his experience of the hospital, feel as if they’re merely stalling for time before bigger reveals. It all leads to a satisfying emotional conclusion, though, which connects to issues involving family, sexuality, and what it means to truly understand a loved one.

A thoughtful and tender exploration of grief and secrets.