HERE I AM

A friendless, bullied teen finds healing through weightlifting.

At 6 feet tall and fat, Marcella Boucher is friendless and self-loathing. At school she faces constant, sometimes physical, torment, and at home, her gym-owning, ostensibly loving parents enforce dangerous calorie restrictions. She’s been making out with popular boy Lou, but only in secret. In fact, Lou is dating Vivi, a popular, skinny cheerleader. Marcella is humiliated after she asks Lou out in public—he not only rejects her, but Vivi also adds her own scornful insults. Her distress is so great that she tries to hang herself, an event that’s described in detail. After the aborted attempt, Marcella’s father forces her to visit a “board certified therapist specializing in eating disorders and childhood obesity.” Meanwhile, a surprising friendship with Jason, the new boy at school, leads Marcella to a women’s weightlifting gym, where she gains self-confidence. Jason, who’s in foster care, has struggles of his own. Marcella’s emotional growth arc also follows her eating disorder therapy to address her binging. However, her suicide attempt (provoked by vicious bullying at school, enablement of that mistreatment by the administration, and abusive fat-shaming at home) is not adequately addressed in therapy, and it’s seemingly not taken seriously enough by the adults around her, despite the livid bruises around her throat. All major characters appear to be white.

A painfully real account of a teen’s inhumane treatment, with mixed mental health representation.